Life after you

by Adriana

I have never had to say goodbye to anyone and know it was forever. to know that you were not dead but just removed from my life.

And as i lay here tonight in my bed watching my phone. Praying to god that your name will light up my phone.
But knowing that will never happen again is like a i have never known. Because missing you hurts but letting you go would be a damn suicide.
And i feel like you were my own personal drug my own addiction. because when i miss you it physicaly hurts. i feel like i might actually die of a broken heart sometimes.

And i lay here with "just give me a reason" by p�¡nk on repeat. one line playing over and over "just give me a reason just a little bits enough just a second we're not broken just bent and we could learn to love again". And when that song ends i listen to "break even" by the script one line on repeat "and when a heart breaka it dont break even (no) and what am i supposed to do when the best part of me was always you". this is me this is what i can put my emotions into now. this is all i can sum myself up to be. i really dont know what the heck to do cuz you were the best parts of me you were my heart and you were my conscience. and i don't have those anymore. and i want a freaking reason as to why you left me like i was nothing but a dog on the sidewalk.

I am just laying here thinking of stuff you would tell me about my life now. i know you would be angry with me for what i am doing again. but both your "fishies" are doing it together. and your brother knows talk about a stab in the back. but yeah this is how you cause me to spen my nights now on the edge of a emotional meltdown.   

Sorry

by Kaycat

I'm sorry...

I'm sorry I burden you with my feelings
I'm sorry your friends tease you because I try to say hello
I'm sorry I can't make myself stop loving you
I'm sorry I'm to cowardly to end my life to make yours easier....

I'm sorry....   

When Will You Ever Notice Me?

by LivingInDarkness

What do I have to do to get you to notice me?
Change my hair, the way I walk.
My clothes, the way I talk.
We've known each other for some time now
yet I'm still invisible to you.
My feelings run deep and how
I wish you only knew.
I see your face every time I close my eyes
To me you just seem so different from the other guys.
To you I'm just a friend
Nothing more, nothing less
I settle for friendship in the end
Because I don't want to make a mess.
Instead I'll keep my secret to myself
And take my pride back off the shelf.
Until one day you finally see
That you and I were meant to be.
I'll wait for now but not too long
Because sooner or later I'll be gone.
So when will you notice me?   

Tears of yesterday

by Susie Grogan

When I woke up this morning you where not there,I always knew I love you ,I always knew you care,I thought I had cried till the tears were gone,but when I look at you picture I know I am along,I remember our first Kiss,I can smell the roses you could always grow,oh heart of mine you was suppose to be here ,and with me grow old,as I see the night is close at hand,but the pain is there,I feel I just can,t stand,As I knee down to say my prayer,a tear falls of yesterdays.   

Empty Places

by AngelDust

I pushed certain memories away
Or make that almost all of them
Because I didn't want to remember.

I've been running for over two years
But suffering lately.
Suffering from the hurt I ignore
The pain from losing you.

I was out today
Somewhere we always used to go
And I almost broke
Right there in the centre

The centre of the isle
Where you once stood.
Living, breathing
And real.

Where was once warm is cold
And where was once safe
Is fragile.
And everything is cracking and crumbling.

Because just like you
Everything I touch is fading away.

And I wish that I could follow you..

D.J

01/15/2013   

Interrupted

by AngelDust

Memories are resurfacing
Mostly small.
They follow me everywhere
Hot tears fall.

They scar my cheeks
Your loss has blackened my heart.
Bruised, grazed,
Utterly torn about.

Crumbling like ashes
Laughter melts away.
Chained, ravished
I missed your final day.

There's guilt, anger
That scrapes and burns.
Shaken, bewildered
The thoughts in me churn.

Marked, sickened
Hear my agonizing screams.
Pathetic, disgusted
I hide you in my dreams.

Terrified, lost
It's only you I need.
Exhausted, destroyed
Come to me, I plead.

Comatose, bleeding
I silently wonder why.
I sob in erupting anguish
Because you had to die.

Reaching, slipping,
Please, can you come home?
Because when I'm without you,
I'm empty, almost numb..

D.J

01/24/2013   

Tomorrow will be to late

Tomorrow will be to late. (dedicated to a friend passing.)

by Tori

Tomorrow will be too late,
I wish it wasn't so,
I guess that's just fate,
And how unfair life can go...

I'll hold our yesterdays tight,
No one can take those away,
I'd put up a hell of a fight,
If God could of let you stay.

Why did you go like this?
You were so rare to find...
I hope you know, YOU, I miss...
And our memories replay in my mind.

Oh the number of dimes,
That I would have...it seems,
If I counted all the times,
I've wished this was just a bad dream...

Unfortunately, I'm not at sleep,
And this is all very much real..
Only memories I have to keep,
And the pain, from losing you, that I feel.

I've learned now to always expect,
That tomorrow may not be here,
Each words.. Spoke can have an affect,
So hold those close that are most dear.

But tomorrow is too late,
And oh, God how I wish that wasn't so...
My guess is only fate...
And how unfair life can go...

So I hold our memories so tight,

No one can take that away,
Know that, I'd put up one hell of a fight...
To have God grant you one more day.

rip Garrett Viccaro 4-1-13